Meredith Ludwig Curtis
  • Home
  • Jesus
    • Bible Studies >
      • God's Girls Friends to the End Bible Study
      • God's Girls Beauty Secrets
      • God's Girls Talk about Guys, Virtue, & Marriage Bible Study
      • The Making of Real Men
      • Real Men Talk about Freedom, GIrls, & Marriage
    • Worship
    • Testimony >
      • Family
      • Church Family
  • Books
    • Maggie King Mysteries
    • How -To-Homeschool
    • Teach History the Fun Way >
      • Ancient History Cookbook
      • Ancient History Timeline
      • HIS Story of the 20th Century
      • Let's Have Our Own Ancient Greek Olympic Games
      • Let's Have Our Own Archaeological Dig
      • Let's Have Our Own Medieval Banquet
    • Celebrate
  • Courses/ Units
    • Unit Studies
    • High School Courses >
      • Who Dun It
      • American Literature & Research Course by Meredith Curtis
      • Economics, Finances, & Business Course
      • Economics, Finances, & Business Answer Key by Meredith Curtis
  • Speaking
    • Speaking Schedule
    • Family & Ministry Workshops
    • Homeschool Workshops
    • Homeschool High School Workshops
    • Meredith's Financial Workshops
    • Worship Workshops
    • Pastor Mike"s Workshops
    • Family & Friend's Workshops
  • Blog

When Things Go Terribly Wrong

6/2/2018

0 Comments

 
Picture
"She should be out by now," I said to my husband. I wasn't worried; just noting that I was expecting to be in the recovery room with her by now. 

"Don't worry! Everything's fine," my husband reassured me. 

Only it wasn't fine. 

An hour passed. The simple surgery to remove her gall bladder was now past two hours. 

When the doctor came out and asked for me to sign a release to give blood, I felt panic rising in my heart. What was going on? You don't give blood during a simple surgery. Unless...

I began to pray. I found an empty spot and sang to Jesus and cried out to Him to keep my baby safe. Texts were made to my children, sister, and closest friends, begging them to pray. 

During that time, my daughter was bleeding out on the operating table. They had no idea why. They gave her one pint of blood and then another. Still she was bleeding out. They made plans to airlift her to another hospital, making calls to arrange for another surgeon. 

Not knowing any of this was going on, I just kept praying. My daughter Julianna arrived. Then, Jenny Rose arrived. We waited. We worried. We prayed. 

A transplant specialist, famous in central Florida, just happened to be free and decided to drive an hour to the hospital rather than have her airlifted so she could be kept stable. There was another consent to be signed. I still didn't know what was going on and I was scared. We all just kept praying and asking God to save our little girl. 

Picture
Picture
By now the waiting room was filling up. Laura and her family arrived. The rest of my family joined Mike and I. We were scared and praying. Finally, after six hours of waiting, I was able to see my daughter. The damage causing the blood loss had been repaired and it left permanent results. For a week, we watched her carefully. Her doctors came in several times a day. Everyone in our family and church family prayed for supernatural healing. Within two months, lab results looked almost normal. 

A few months later, my husband was preaching and he said, "We don't know why God allowed these things to happen to Shine, but He did and we have peace about it." 

In that moment, I realized that I wasn't okay with what had happened to her. I was full of sorrow, angry that she would need to be monitored the rest of her life. She was my baby. Why had it happened to her? Why did this happen her senior year of college, a challenging year in her major? 

I slipped out of the sanctuary and made my way to a quiet corner of the church where I knelt down and sobbed. I felt that my heart was breaking, a dam had burst. 

"I don't understand why You have allowed this Lord. I am confused and heartbroken. Help me!" As I cried and prayed, I fully surrendered the situation to the Lord. And I surrendered my daughter to the Lord. I had to trust that God would protect her, keep her safe, keep her healthy. She was His child, not mine. I was just entrusted with her to love her and raise her for a season. When I was gone, who would take care of her, make sure she was safe?  

In those moments of not understanding why and what God allows to happen, our hearts can be full of fear. We know that all evil and disease comes from satan and he plots to kill, steal, and destroy. (John 10:10). That same verse tells us that Jesus brings life more abundantly. We know that there is no miracle unless there is a tragedy or deep need. Yet, it is so hard to trust Jesus with our babies, even if they are all grown up. 

Processing these things is difficult, but we are not alone. Jesus is with us, helping us to sort out the lies from the truth, to remind us that even when we don't understand why He allows terrible things to happen, He is not the Author of those things, and ultimately, He has defeated those things. In the New Heaven and New Earth, there is not sadness, no tragedies, no heartbreak, no things going terribly wrong. On the cross, Jesus defeated death and sin. We may live in a fallen world now, but ultimately we will live in a perfect one.

In the meantime, we can trust His promises that He works all things together for good because we love Him and are called for a Purpose. (Romans 8:28) That means we get a testimony out of every tragedy. Every time something goes terribly wrong, Jesus will bring giant good out of it. 

If you are hurting, my heart breaks for you. I encourage you to press into Jesus. You can bring Him your questions, doubts, fears, and,  yes, even anger. He loves you. He will never leave you. He has a place prepared for you where there is nothing that goes terribly wrong. 

Love in Jesus, 
Merey (Meredith Ludwig Curtis)

P.S. My sweet Shine graduated from UCF this spring cum laude. She overcame! She triumphed because of Jesus! Best of all, she loves Christ with her whole heart. 
Picture
Picture

Resources for Moms to Grow in Christ

Picture
Ladies Bible Study exploring the Priceless Beauty of Godly Womanhood.
Picture
Bible Study on Christian Homemaking
Picture
How to Homeschool and how our family homeschools for the glory of God.
Picture
Podcast about the Lord's incredible love for Sarah, and for you, too.

Resources for Teens to Grow in Christ

Picture
Pastor Mike's first year of discipleship material he used with his son in high school.
Picture
One-credit high school course on basics of living for God as a godly man.
Picture
Bible study about purity, freedom, girls, dating with a purpose, and marriage preparation.
Picture
One'credit high school course on leadership for men who want to lead the Lord's way.
Picture
Bible study on inward and outward beauty. Lots of beauty tips and photos.
Picture
One-credit course on the basics of Christianity to lay a strong foundation as a woman of God.
Picture
Bible study on friendship. The principles learned apply to all relationships.
Picture
Bible study on guys, virtue, dating with a purpose, and marriage preparation.
0 Comments



Leave a Reply.

    Author

    Meredith Curtis, homeschooling mom & worship leader, is married to her college sweetheart. She is blessed with 5 amazing children, 3 adorable grandchildren, and an awesome church family!
    ​

    Picture

    Archives

    August 2019
    May 2019
    April 2019
    January 2019
    August 2018
    June 2018
    May 2018
    April 2018
    October 2017
    September 2017
    August 2017
    June 2017
    May 2017
    April 2017
    March 2017
    January 2017
    November 2016
    October 2016
    September 2016
    May 2016
    April 2016
    March 2016
    February 2016
    December 2015
    October 2015
    July 2015
    May 2015
    January 2015
    October 2014
    April 2014
    December 2013
    November 2013
    May 2013
    April 2013
    March 2013
    February 2013
    January 2013
    December 2012
    November 2012
    October 2012
    September 2012
    August 2012
    July 2012
    June 2012
    May 2012
    April 2012
    March 2012
    February 2012
    January 2012
    December 2011
    November 2011
    October 2011

    Categories

    All
    Abiding
    Baking
    Beauty
    Bible
    Bible Study
    Birthdays
    Book Reviews
    Books
    Business
    Celebrate
    Charity
    Christian Living
    Christmas
    Christmas Craft
    Christmas Homeschooling
    Church History
    College Prep
    Cooking
    Crafts
    Curriculum Reviews
    Devotions
    Doctrine
    Easter
    Economics
    Exercise
    Family
    Father's Day
    Field Trips
    Finances
    Finish Well
    Food
    Friendship
    Geography
    Gift Ideas
    Government
    Great Commission
    Health
    Heroes
    History
    Holiday Craft
    Holidays
    Home
    Homemaking
    Homeschool Conference
    Homeschooling
    Homeschooling Book Reviews
    Homeschooling Conference
    Homeschooling Curriculum
    Homeschooling Curriculum Reviews
    Homeschooling High School
    Homeschooling High School Reviews
    Homeschooling Reviews
    Hospitality
    Humor
    Lapbooks
    Learning
    Literature
    Living Books
    Logic
    Marriage
    Math
    Mentoring
    Ministry
    Money
    Motherhood
    Mothering
    Mothers Day
    Music
    New Years
    Nutrition
    Parenting
    Politics
    Prayer
    Reading
    Recipes
    Reformation Day
    Relationships
    Reviews
    Sales
    Science
    Sound Doctrine
    Spiritual Warfare
    Teaching
    Teens
    Testimony
    Thanksgiving
    Theology
    Time Management
    Traditions
    Traditions Devotions
    Travel
    Trials
    Unit Studies
    Wedding
    Worldviews
    Worship
    Worship Leading
    Writing

    RSS Feed

Powered by Create your own unique website with customizable templates.
Photos used under Creative Commons from Anders Ruff Custom Designs, Sugar Daze, scrink, trekkyandy, H.C. Williams, whitneyinchicago, Elin B, Dottie Mae, Tony A., t i b i, the.laus, the.Firebottle, SebastianDooris, robinsan, wwarby, jimmiehomeschoolmom, Dougtone, williamcho, Randy OHC, littlemoresunshine, Alex E. Proimos, matsuyuki, ChR!s H@rR!0t, AMagill, Teddy Delivery, abcdz2000, UF Digital Collections, ElvertBarnes, auntjojo, BdwayDiva1, swanksalot, missycaulk, Lance Shields, Walter Saporiti, ComputerHotline, Sam Howzit, LeonArts.at, garlandcannon, midiman, kmezon, mickbarry, Official U.S. Navy Imagery, DC Central Kitchen, stu_spivack, aussiegall, saebaryo, Fairy Heart ♥, Damian Cugley, Vince Alongi, Richard Masoner / Cyclelicious, momentcaptured1, epSos.de, davedehetre, 96dpi, geraldbrazell, bterrycompton, Lauren Manning, THE Holy Hand Grenade!, eser.karadag, archer10 (Dennis), Catholic Westminster, SmithGreg, flypig, jelene, rust.bucket, Robert Scoble, Sterling College, SharonaGott, timparkinson, Fire At Will [Photography], KitAy, mareeshastar, Dougtone, Ed Yourdon, California Cthulhu (Will Hart), John-Morgan, Monica's Dad, ktylerconk, doegox, Khairil Zhafri, floodllama, mattjlc, bunnicula, smithfischer, Ahmed Rabea, The Consumerist, blmurch, Sh4rp_i, dwstucke, dtcchc, arjin j, damian m, Panegyrics of Granovetter, ewan traveler, young shanahan, Rennett Stowe, singingwitness, ronnie44052, Tim Green aka atoach, russell pix, missbrendatoyou, Ambernectar 13, LancerE, riptheskull, rs-foto, Max Braun, Yoshimai, dbgg1979, TheSeafarer, Old Sarge, Ewan-M, rictulio, Gwydion M. Williams, quinn.anya, abbybatchelder, katmeresin, Mr. T in DC, tuchodi, SLV's, mealmakeovermoms, Hollingsworth, hoyasmeg, Monica's Dad, Shane's Stuff, frotzed2, Matthew Juzenas, bunkejer4, weeklydig, St.John'sFlowerGuild, InAweofGod'sCreation, Doc Wert, Nomadic Lass, Samdogs, Rojer, MASB Desenvolvimento Imobiliário, Calsidyrose, wallygrom, Tiberiu Ana, ZeroOne, Randy OHC, Betsssssy, georgiapeachez, Lars Plougmann, dtcchc, antwerpenR, Wiros, myfuture.com, ewan traveler, cliff1066™, Peggy2012CREATIVELENZ, 401K 2012, mikemol, Aranami, Randy OHC, Joan Lesan, jm3, Stifts- och landsbiblioteket i Skara, Lunatic Asylum Photostudio, Michael 1952, Zyllan, Images_of_Money, striatic, riptheskull, sanchom, Nick Harris1, S. Reachers, Matt McGee, fdecomite, Wesley Fryer, yenna, Daniel Dale, michael_swan, Rodrigo_Soldon, Barefoot In Florida, Bright Meadow, turtlemom4bacon, Svadilfari, Rennett Stowe, juliejordanscott, Emilio del Prado, Marysol*, avlxyz, Näystin, Belzie, cliff1066™, EraPhernalia Vintage . . . (playin' hook-y ;o), Mike Licht, NotionsCapital.com, Etereal9, loco's photos, BigSéance, bigal_60714